This class is designed to begin a dialogue between first responders about one of the silent killers, suicide. However, there are stages prior to suicide that if we can identify, we can save our own. Too often we find ourselves grieving when we lose a brother or sister, but why does it take a tragedy to bring people together? In this class, I will present my own battle with the diagnosis of PTSD and depression. My goal is to show others that they are not alone. However, there is still so much stigma surrounding the discussion of mental health in first responders that we must start breaking down the barriers and open up a dialogue. Even within our own departments there is often a lack of support and even labeling of those suffering from these terrible battles. Until changes are made, we will continue to tragically lose our first responders to something that they can be helped with if we identify it soon enough. We work to save others, but who saves us?